Obsession

Hi, I'm Jandy, and I have an obsessive personality. Or something like it. I get incredibly obsessed incredibly easily, and when I get obsessed with something, I go all the way. When I was little, it was horses. I had an imaginary stable. But this wasn't just "oh, sometimes I imagine I have horses." No, I had a registry. Like, a physical notebook that listed all my horses' names, their breed and breeding, their height, their color, their discipline, their temperament...and this was an ongoing thing for years, where the horses got older, and I bred them together, and got new horses that got added to the registry, etc. I still have that book somewhere.

Later, it was figure skating. This was after the 1994 Olympics. I watched it faithfully, learned the names of all the skaters, all the commentators, all the jumps and how to do them (although I can't skate, so I just had to pretend to do them in my living room), kept a spreadsheet keeping track of which skaters were from where and what they'd won, taped and watched every competition for the next two or three years.

On to TV shows, which remain an obsession--to varying degrees depending on the TV show. I can name you pretty much every episode of Buffy right now. Veronica Mars, same thing. I go through phases where all I want to do is watch a specific TV show, whether it be 24 or Lost or Gilmore Girls or Desperate Housewives or whatever. These obsessions tend to be short-lived and don't extend outside of the show itself (i.e., I don't really get a great desire to learn everything about the actors' lives).

Movies are an ongoing one, so I'm not even mentioning it. My love of movies is always bubbling under the surface, but it rarely exhibits itself as an out-and-out obsession.

My current obsession, as you may have guessed based on my last couple of posts, is American Idol, and believe me saying that is incredibly embarrassing. I have spent four years mocking this show specifically and reality TV in general (I still reserve my right to mock other reality shows), and claiming that even this year when I decided to try it out as a concert show, I wouldn't get into the whole competition/voting aspect. Yeah, that lasted all of four or five shows into the competition segment. By that time, I'd caught McPheever and I couldn't turn back.

I spent two or three hours this morning scouring the net for clips of interviews, news of what the Idols are doing next, and trying to talk myself out of wanting to go to the American Idol concert this summer. I dislike the elimination aspect a LOT, and I loved the finale with all the Idols back and performing together and just having fun. Now I really really want to go to the concert. Really really badly. Someone talk me out of this! Or, alternately, agree to go with me.

Yeah, that would work. So how about it? August 13th at Savvis? I'd have to come back from Texas for that, but I'd probably do it. That's how obsession works. Or else September in Austin. For that I'd have to drag my livejournal friend from Houston, though, and a) Houston's a long way from Austin (although she loves Austin and might do it, and b) I'm not sure she'd want to go. But tickets are on sale now, and I'm sure they're going fast, so if I don't decide soon, my decision might get made for me against my will.

In related news, Steven Spielberg wants to meet with Kat! Woohoo! In other, less fun news, her album probably won't be recorded and released for like six months.

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• american-idol
• television
• obsession